rants...

ahhhhh... Got a terrible headache today. ARRGGHH! totally hate it! It makes me dun feel like doing the tutorials even more. Haiz, guess dat was juz an excuse i gave myself for not doing tutorials. But, i really am not in the mood doing tutorials, i only feel like doing AAA. Cuz it is maths and POA related, the rest of the lectures, i dun even understand a single thing.

Many random stuffs kept running into my mind today, until at a point of time i dun even noe wat i was thinking about. Everything irritates me today. I feel so stress when i look at those lecture notes where i dun even understand a single thing. ARRGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I hate hate hate studying, why muz one study so he/she can succeed in the future? U muz be thinking why am i working so hard now to get dat damn piece of paper (certificate)? Because i want to earn money and spend! I dun want to be a beggar on the street begging for money. I want to live my future in luxury. I want to get a high paying job and dun want to be a boss cuz i dun have the entrepreneurial ability. I want to be a boss, but do u think everyone can be one? Do u think it is so simple? So i think it would be safer to get a job, maybe one day i will get strike by the lightning and become smarter and start my own business.

Looking at those classmates who is answering the lecturers, tutors questions, i felt so worried for myself. I kept telling myself: "Look! Other ppl is so smart and they understands wat the lecturer is talking about and am able to answer their question in split seconds. Me? I am juz sitting there listening and nothing went in."

Am i dumb or wat? Or do i belong to those who learns things much much much slower. Maybe i got into the wrong skool, i should go into the skool dat accepts super slow learner. ARRGGGHHHH! Fuck the society dat requires the "piece of paper" so we can work. DAMN U!

BYE!

-i am juz got rather irritated today due to the headache. please ignore this post.-

*signing off*